Friends

Friends,
we all need them, the people that we talk to, the people that we need to go to when our spouses are tired of us or if we just need another perspective. Even guys who are manly men need friends and they need close friends. (bromances if you want to call them.) I do not have a close friend like that.

I am a person with a lot of friends but I also am a person that doesn't communicate well, im just not a communicator. So therefore my friends are more of acquaintances.

Again I recently went on a vacation with my wife as the guest of some friends. d and ryan. ryan and i have always been good friends, i would say that he is one of my best friends, but again not being a good communicator we don't talk to much. Well on this vacation i found out how good of friends we were.

normally when you go on vacation with friend, at some point, you get tired or irritated with them, even when that friend is a family member. but this was different, karen and i never were at the point, we loved being with them even to the point where after the vacation and we were back home we missed them. what a great connection, so I would say that ryan would be the closest thing to a bromance that I have. even though i will still struggle with the calling him thing.

Laziness

I've always been a person that procrastinated when it came to doing something that was either difficult or something that I just did not want to do. But in the last 3 years I have become very lazy. Letting the yard get out of control organizing the bills and lots of other things. even fantasy football.

I'm not sure how I got here but I need out! I need to get back into life. God doesn't want me to be a lazy bum. Neither does my wife!

What it comes to is that I feel lost, spinning out of control. So I just shut down, hide my head in the dirt like an ostrage. So many things in my life seem out of control. my daughter going to college next year, how far in debt we are, bills and the fact that they don't stop, my son and his being so much like me when it comes to his learning at school, being pulled everywhere.

I was able to go to the beach on a much needed husband and wife vacation. We where invited to go with my best friend and his wife. no kids just us and the beach. I was able to scrap some money together, (yes it should have went to bills) and we went. It was an amazing time. well where I am going is this, I was able to sit down at the beach one afternoon and just watch the waves crash in. What an amazing thing, I was able to have a great conversation with God and discuss things in my life that I need to change. Laziness being one of them, its the root of all my evil. So right now I am going to tell you, (if anybody is out there reading this) that it is now going to stop. I am going to get it going, but I will need help so if you know me ask me how my laziness is going and hope fully I can answer you by saying in on course. if I don't say its on course I'm lying to you. its not on course.

Emails

Why is it that when you get a email from someone about God or a story about a christian that tells of a miracle of God that they always say if you don't pass this on your truly not a Christian. that just makes me not want to send it around. Like God will not love me because I don't want to fill other peoples email boxes up with stuff. (most of the time the stories are not even true) Just a thought from my head.

RIGHT!

I like to people watch. Not only watch but I try to figure out what they are like. Weather behind the wheel of a car or walking down the road. Like, people that like to drive 55 or 60 in the left lane and I (who is driving 65 or 68) have to pass them in the right lane. Are they oblivious to the fact that I really should not pass on the right and therefore they should get over and let me go by on the left. Or maybe it's that they just don't care and they will drive in what ever lane they want.

Life can be like that, sometimes we just sit in the left lane and let the whole world drive by on the right not knowing whats going on and sometimes we site over in the left lane and don't care whats going on in the world. But that's where we get in trouble, We need to get involved in the world around us. Be a voice for what you believe in. As a Christian sometimes I get worried that I will be called a name because I stand up for what I believe in. Being a Christian is not always politically correct and the world is so worried about being fair and equal to everyone that sometimes we forget what is right.

I know that there are a lot of beliefs out there, I happen to think that Christianity is the only way to heaven. I also know that there is someone just like me that thinks their way is the only way to heaven or what ever they call it. But most of the religions have to do with God and differ through his Son, or prophet. But for the most part we know what is right and I mean right in the sense of Godly right. We must keep what God wants us to do, in front of us weather its right to the world or not. God made this world and he will rule it, he is the one sovereign God, He rules All.

So put your faith in him and Jesus Christ and follow what is right in His eyes and get involved with the world!

Voices

Voices, The voices or urges to do something. Why do we always listen to the ones that tell us to do the bad things in life rather than what God wants us to do. We, as humans, have always struggled with doing the right thing. Weather it be with the way we live or what we eat. We are always drawn to the food that is bad for us but tastes so good. Its like that with sin. I find myself always doing the the things that I do not want to do but yet in side me I desire it. Rather that what God wants me to do. I often ask myself why can I get ride of these voices telling me to do the bad things rather than listen to the Holy Spirit telling me to do.

I really find that it is truly because deep down in side me its because I don't want to get ride of them, I like the way sin makes me feel. Just like that food thats full of fat and cholesterol, but you eat it anyway, you know you shouldn't but you do because it tastes so good.

Sin, a word that the world would like to forget about, try to ignore, but we can't! We can not let Satan's demons win the battle of the voices. Ask God for clarity and help along the way and he will provide.

Grace

I had a profound thing happen to me this past week. As a Christian I always try to walk the path that Christ walks. I fail miserably sometimes and always look to God for forgiveness. Well this past week I had someone close to me do something unlawful which involved me indirectly but still affected me. When the person that it affected the most called and asked me how things should play out, I told him something had to be done in the aspect of getting this person to stop going down the path she was going. The next day I got a copy of the email he sent out to the person. He took the path of giving grace and not pressing any charges. Grace! Something that I expect to get from God for free, no questions asked, just given. Then why didn't I think about giving this person grace? It's because I live in a world that wants justice. That is not an excuse but what I perceive as a mind set. I wish my mind set was to think of grace first. You know do unto others as you would have done to you. So the next time something happens to me let me think of how Christ would walk that path before you walk it.

Book of Acts.

Right now I am reading the book of Acts. I have read it before, but I wanted to read it again to refresh my thoughts on it.