Friends

Friends,
we all need them, the people that we talk to, the people that we need to go to when our spouses are tired of us or if we just need another perspective. Even guys who are manly men need friends and they need close friends. (bromances if you want to call them.) I do not have a close friend like that.

I am a person with a lot of friends but I also am a person that doesn't communicate well, im just not a communicator. So therefore my friends are more of acquaintances.

Again I recently went on a vacation with my wife as the guest of some friends. d and ryan. ryan and i have always been good friends, i would say that he is one of my best friends, but again not being a good communicator we don't talk to much. Well on this vacation i found out how good of friends we were.

normally when you go on vacation with friend, at some point, you get tired or irritated with them, even when that friend is a family member. but this was different, karen and i never were at the point, we loved being with them even to the point where after the vacation and we were back home we missed them. what a great connection, so I would say that ryan would be the closest thing to a bromance that I have. even though i will still struggle with the calling him thing.

Laziness

I've always been a person that procrastinated when it came to doing something that was either difficult or something that I just did not want to do. But in the last 3 years I have become very lazy. Letting the yard get out of control organizing the bills and lots of other things. even fantasy football.

I'm not sure how I got here but I need out! I need to get back into life. God doesn't want me to be a lazy bum. Neither does my wife!

What it comes to is that I feel lost, spinning out of control. So I just shut down, hide my head in the dirt like an ostrage. So many things in my life seem out of control. my daughter going to college next year, how far in debt we are, bills and the fact that they don't stop, my son and his being so much like me when it comes to his learning at school, being pulled everywhere.

I was able to go to the beach on a much needed husband and wife vacation. We where invited to go with my best friend and his wife. no kids just us and the beach. I was able to scrap some money together, (yes it should have went to bills) and we went. It was an amazing time. well where I am going is this, I was able to sit down at the beach one afternoon and just watch the waves crash in. What an amazing thing, I was able to have a great conversation with God and discuss things in my life that I need to change. Laziness being one of them, its the root of all my evil. So right now I am going to tell you, (if anybody is out there reading this) that it is now going to stop. I am going to get it going, but I will need help so if you know me ask me how my laziness is going and hope fully I can answer you by saying in on course. if I don't say its on course I'm lying to you. its not on course.

Emails

Why is it that when you get a email from someone about God or a story about a christian that tells of a miracle of God that they always say if you don't pass this on your truly not a Christian. that just makes me not want to send it around. Like God will not love me because I don't want to fill other peoples email boxes up with stuff. (most of the time the stories are not even true) Just a thought from my head.